Beating the winter blues!
Sunday, January 24, 2021
This month is proving to be very mentally challenging as I really do not like winter, plus we would normally spend the second half of January in Spain, but this year we are stuck at home, like so many people.
I got a bit self-indulgent and was not trying to improve my habits in the slightest, but this week I have given myself a talking to and I am getting ready to turn things around.
I am back to tracking my food. I am doing one week of just eating as I want to but tracking everything, so that I can study the data and pinpoint where I need to make improvements going forward.
On Wednesday I will do my monthly weigh in. If I didn't mention, I am weighing in a week after the start of TOM each month because I think that will give the best indication of true loss or gain. I have a bad feeling this month will see a gain, but we are where we are!
Then Wednesday will also be the first day of me trying to stick to my calorie goal of 1600 - 1900. I mean like REALLY trying to stick to it, not like before when I was just logging foods but not stopping eating when I hit my target number.
I will also be keeping half an eye on my macros because I have to keep my fat intake down but I want to balance that with extra protein rather than extra carbs, as I have been doing.
If I am being honest with you all, I have to tell you that I am currently petrified! My weight is so out of control and I know that I have to find the mental strength to turn things around but I am not 100% sure if I can! I have to though! I must lose weight before I have my gallbladder removal operation because if I don't, recovery will be slower and more painful and it will be more of a strain on my hubby if he has to help me move around.
Also remembering that the pre-op assessment nurse said to me in 2019 that the operation is like completing a marathon in terms of the strain it puts on the body. The only marathon I could complete right now is now known as a Snickers! So change is essential.
Oh yes, I had my asthma review over the phone last week and we agreed I should increase my inhaler dose from 1 puff twice a day to 2 puffs twice a day, then we will review in 6 months. So I would like to be feeling a lot better by then.
Please send your most positive vibes or prayers, whatever your preference. I have to dig deep and succeed at this!