Fountain of life meditation age 1
Saturday, January 30, 2021
Read my previous blog to make sense of this one.
January 30, 2021 ~ 1 year old
Today, I called out my 1 year old little self, using a teddy bear as a surrogate, I told her how much I love her and that how sorry I am that she had to endure all that pain, rape, abuse, hunger, abandonment, from food, affection and love. I am sorry you didn’t have anyone to protect you, to hold you and tell you how perfect you are. I am sorry you didn’t have a mommy and daddy who loved you. But I promise you that I will always love you, protect you and be with you for the rest of my life. You are and always were perfect, sweet, innocent, beautiful and wonderful. You were and are always good. I love you soo very much. Holding her tight to my heart, as tears poured out of both of us. As I was saying all this, feeling this, we bawled together. I then told her that we would wash away all this yuk from both of us. With the most wonderful healing waters from the heavens. I even took a drink of it and dipped a little in my hand and gave it to baby Jetta. Now we are both all clean, all the shame, dirt, pain, loneliness, hunger, thirst and anything else not of our highest good, all leaving our body down into the fountain to be washed away. Then with her in my arms, we step out from this heavenly fountain of life, we were immediately dry. Stepping onto the path to the elevator, with beautiful pink and white roses on each side of this path. Slowly walking down this path, showing off my beautiful little girl, reaching down and picking a beautiful pure white flower and giving it to her, telling her how perfect she is and how happy and thankful I am for her. I felt like shouting it out to the world, LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL BABY JETTA!!! We went into the elevator and from the 8th floor going down to the 1st floor back to my body. She enmeshed with me all healed, loved and clean. I am so very grateful for her, for this healing, this cleansing and releasing of more of the pain. What a gift this little one was for me and to survive what she survived, wow. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!