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Fountain of life meditation age 7

Friday, February 05, 2021

February 5, 2021 ~ 7 Years old

Today, I called out my 7 year old self. I at first felt this happy little girl, out on the trip with her daddy in Texas, being on the farm, she loved all the animals. Chickens, cows but especially the horses. I can't say all what happened this morning. The whole theme of this morning though was about the confusion of what love really is. What love daddy told me is not the real love. Not the real healthy love of God or ? This is really hard because the word love was so distorted, I was so confused, because what they taught me is love is painful, love hurts, love is torture. This one will take a few days to work on.

I know as the adult what love is, I have felt love from the other side, love ot my angels, love of Jesus and real love from my wonderful hubby for 25 years now. How horrible and sick for them to make love into a bad thing. Something to effect my whole life.

I did take my 7 year old self into the fountain to wash away all the pain, confusion, sadness and yuckiness. But, I need to work on this more. I feel like a mess right now. I sure didn't expect this to happen. Another gift to work on and heal.
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    I was in my 50’s when God healed my 4 year old self. He is able! I’m free to be me Just like you are One day at a time
    127 days ago
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    Jesus is sitting at the right hand of the Heavenly Father. HE knows how you feel. He experienced hate, rejection, and cruelty at the hands of all. Yet, on the cross he said Father, forgive them they know not what they do. Go to him, ask his for strength to heal all your past pain and to forgive those who caused you so much pain. Don't let those who hurt you so badly have control over your feelings any longer. It will not be easy but with God all things are possible.
    I continue to pray for you daily. Hang in there.
    Try to think of all the good things you have experienced since you left the time of all that cruelty. I am so glad you have had a wonderful marriage of 20 plus years. I saw the picture of you and your daughter. There is a lot of good memories to cherish.
    128 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/6/2021 9:48:19 AM
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    129 days ago
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