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River Deep Mountain High

Wednesday, March 10, 2021

Ooof, what a tough year.

I'm writing this on the eve of what's widely considered the one-year anniversary of the Corona virus - at least in the United States.

This time last year, we heard about cases just south of us in Seattle. People were still out and about at the beginning of the week. I had some social meetings with people and wondered, "should I hug them?" I hugged them. Nervously.

I was supposed to bring food to an event on Friday, March 13 and decided to cancel at the beginning of the week. By Wednesday, the event was cancelled.

What can I say about the overwhelming amount of deaths, suffering, loss of jobs/savings/resources, evictions, and those whose health is permanently impacted?
Oh, and the isolation - of so, so many. People in nursing homes, or single apartments... people separated from their loved ones by miles or borders...just a mess of pain.

A few good things. Fewer colds and flu illness... clearer skies and less pollution.. and many, many animals venturing forth. Playing! Growing in numbers!

My loves and I have avoided the worst of suffering - so far. I miss my mother terribly, and hope we can reunite if vaccinated.

But what hit me hardest was a damming combination of depression and insular living. I'm high, high risk, so stopped going outside almost completely. Stopped walking downtown several days a week. Hell, even grocery shopping was activity I no longer had.

And I'm so much worse for it. So much larger, so unhealthy. And of course blaming myself hard for being down on myself.

I'm here to apologize for being less involved, out of touch with my beloved teams and Spark friends. I'm here to say that All is Not Lost, Light is Ahead and to Hope On.

And to pledge -- everyday, to honor and respect myself as best as I can. Choice by choice.

"And it get stronger, in every way, every way
And it gets deeper, deeper, deeper, baby let me say
And it gets higher, day by day"

Tina Turner, "River Deep, Mountain High"
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Member Comments About This Blog Post
    Thank you for posting this. This Covid year has been challenging, surreal. AND, the lighter, brighter is on it’s way...Stay safe. Be strong.
    125 days ago
    Glad you are doing well and glad to see you back!
    140 days ago
    emoticon "...everyday, to honor and respect myself..." emoticon
    142 days ago
    Do NOT blame yourself, "hard" or otherwise!
    Some things truly are beyond our control.
    Creeping back to normal....
    143 days ago
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    143 days ago
    It has been a hard year and I'm sorry it's been so rough for you. Seeing you blog though has made it just a little brighter for me. emoticon
    143 days ago
    Good for you for recognizing it was a difficult year and you got through it as best you could. As we begin to come out of the pandemic it gives us a chance to refocus our energies on other things - like being healthier again, getting in walks, and connecting with other people. Be gentle with yourself and recognize that even if you didn't catch the virus, you didn't come out of the pandemic unscathed!
    143 days ago
    There is a light ahead. Soon, you'll be eligible for the vaccine and that will help. (I had mine yesterday and have warned the grandsons Nana is coming for those hugs.)

    Things will get back on track and we move forward.

    144 days ago
  • LINDA!
    It certainly has been a rough year. I did have Covid, however, luckily it was a mild case. Let's look forward to better health and a better year.
    144 days ago
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