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Thursday, March 18, 2021

It is amazing and dizzying how quickly things can change from good to bad.

I was cruising along, in my groove of healthy eating and exercising and then I wasn't. My back went out and with it all my good habits and behaviors went out too. emoticon

I could hardly walk, let alone exercise. I spent most of (many) days in bed. I even took a couple days off work because it hurt too much to sit. This killed my desire to eat healthy - also with the cook (me) down for the count, hubby ate canned soup and bowls of lettuce with not much attention to me. emoticon he's a good guy, just clueless. I just got tired of telling him everything that he needed to do to keep the house running and take care of me. I just gave up.

I am not going to beat myself up because that isn't productive. I see it for what it was and I feel like I might have handled things differently if I was further into my refocusing in but less than a month back into things, it all fell apart.

So here I am feeling a bit better, still can't really exercise. My back is very unstable and the PT doesn't want me doing anything that's going to make it "go out" again. She told me I can walk and do yoga. Oh joy. Almost my least favorite things.

I am back to tracking and planning and trying to be constructive.



And on a super positive note, some friends are coming over on Sunday. We have not seen them since the summer. Weather is forecasted to be in the high 50s so we'll be enjoying the sun and warmth. emoticon
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  • AKA_TROUBLE
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    39 days ago
  • COMPUCATHY
    Oh no! I am so sorry to hear of your back issues! I get it! When my knee goes out, I have the same problem. It's like you have this great plan that you cannot execute...so forget it. I really cannot do the exercise I had originally planned now that my knee is so wonky. So, I haven't been exercising but just focusing on getting the food right. Just keep healing...I agree with PT person...don't want to re-exacerbate it. That's the plan I have with my knee. While it's mostly feeling better, I keep an eye on it so it doesn't go completely out again.

    We had to decide not to move. DH retired last year which changed our financial dynamic. Really cannot afford to move. So, I am just making the best of where we are. Thanks for asking.

    Hope you have a great 1st day of Spring! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon
    56 days ago
  • REMEMBER2BME
    WOW, so sorry to hear this but you are 100% correct, you definitely cannot be down on yourself. What could you really do after all being in bed. My DH is clueless as well in that way. Don't know that he would do any more (at all) than yours. Goodness, what a gigantic bummer. I have found built bars as my go to when I can not make anything btw. Not that you asked for any suggestions.

    Sure hope you start feeling better and that you enjoy your weekend!
    56 days ago
  • GRANDMABABA
    Feel better! I had backache from covid vaccine... lasted over two weeks the first time...my doctor said he had several patients with that reaction. Got my second vaccine Tuesday and got a much worse reaction, but it also has included the back spasm. Back pain is no fun! Wishing you better days ahead!
    56 days ago
  • NANCYPAULINE
    I'm so sorry to hear about the back problem. It is best to listen to your PT. emoticon
    57 days ago
  • ONEBLUEMOON
    Oh gosh! So sorry to hear of your painful setback, Diane! But being your resilient self, you’re already getting “back” at it (sorry 😞), I see! Keep healing and enjoy the weekend. emoticon
    57 days ago
  • TKLBRIDGET1
    emoticon I wish you all the best!
    57 days ago
  • TSHAWGER
    Love the post!
    57 days ago
  • WANT2BTRIM
    Wishing you the best in your recovery.
    57 days ago
  • MORTICIAADDAMS
    My hubby is like yours. When my knee went out in May of 2020 he grilled meat until it was almost ashes. I ate it anyway but was lucky it didn't pull my teeth. He took care of me otherwise and was so sweet so I guess I can choke down a little charcoal now and then.

    I'm so glad you are improving. I know just what you are going through - been there, done that. Horrible. Be careful. Hugs.
    57 days ago
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