Focused - Blurry
Thursday, March 18, 2021
It is amazing and dizzying how quickly things can change from good to bad.
I was cruising along, in my groove of healthy eating and exercising and then I wasn't. My back went out and with it all my good habits and behaviors went out too.
I could hardly walk, let alone exercise. I spent most of (many) days in bed. I even took a couple days off work because it hurt too much to sit. This killed my desire to eat healthy - also with the cook (me) down for the count, hubby ate canned soup and bowls of lettuce with not much attention to me.
he's a good guy, just clueless. I just got tired of telling him everything that he needed to do to keep the house running and take care of me. I just gave up.
I am not going to beat myself up because that isn't productive. I see it for what it was and I feel like I might have handled things differently if I was further into my refocusing in but less than a month back into things, it all fell apart.
So here I am feeling a bit better, still can't really exercise. My back is very unstable and the PT doesn't want me doing anything that's going to make it "go out" again. She told me I can walk and do yoga. Oh joy. Almost my least favorite things.
I am back to tracking and planning and trying to be constructive.
And on a super positive note, some friends are coming over on Sunday. We have not seen them since the summer. Weather is forecasted to be in the high 50s so we'll be enjoying the sun and warmth.