4 Years Later
Friday, May 07, 2021
So I haven't been on here in 4 years and I see I'm a featured motivator today. Well I guess I can post an update blog. A lot has happened in my life in the last 4 years. Should I list them? LOL Well I gained most of my weight back slowly but surely and lived with it for a couple of years. What caused that to really stay for awhile was some really bad things happening. I was trying to get pregnant...and I did get pregnant...but it was and Ectopic Pregnancy which means it was in the wrong place (tubes) instead of in the uterus. So that had to be terminated. It was a pretty awful experience overall. Then about a year after that my husband decides he just doesn't want to be married anymore right before our 20th anniversary. We still aren't divorced yet but it's pretty much as if we are it's just waiting on being finalized. It's not my choice. It's not what I want in any way shape or form. But sometimes this is what happens in life. So I've been working on myself and healing and grieving the last 2 years. It's really hard.
But some good news is that since last Oct.-ish I actually lost weight! I lost 30 pounds and I actually feel REALLY good where I'm at now. It's interesting because I don't have the goal to be super skinny like I was before anymore. It was way to difficult to maintain and my goal has always been to be able to maintain whatever I am in an enjoyable and healthy way. My health is actually really good where I'm at right now. My body image is so much better too! This time was so much easier to lose than it was ever before. I started going to Zumba again (socially distanced and with wisdom and masks of course). I also decided to become a Zumba Instructor because I love it soo much. I started the training in Jan. and became Licensed in Feb. I haven't taught a full class yet or got a job teaching anywhere yet and I'm still working on memorizing enough choreo to have a full class ready. I'm thinking about starting an online class to gain experience teaching. The place that I've been going is being supportive and letting me lead a song here and there as I get the choreo down! So getting a little experience in the meantime.
I feel like I'm in a really good place right now! An enjoyable maintenance life and on the way to building a life on my own that I love. It's hard work on and in myself but it's worth it. Also I'm fully vaccinated for Covid which is awesome! Tho it doesn't really change much with the mutations out there HA! Still a bit more peace of mind than not.
So that's a sum up of what's happened in the last 4 years and recently!