Tuesday, June 01, 2021
As I mentioned in a previous blog, and is probably unsurprising, given my current weight situation, I am not a big fan of most physical activities, and the two that I have relied on over the years--elliptical and weightlifting--became unfeasible during the pandemic.
Things are looking up! I'm fully vaccinated, and I'll be fully inoculated on Saturday. But....I don't think I'm ready to commit to a gym yet. I think it won't be until after I'm ready to just leave my house on a whim with no planning. I want to be as easy on myself as possible when it comes to this transition. I am really extroverted; I've been known to say I get "drunk on crowds," because I do. But I don't know. I kind of enjoyed being here in my house with my little family, and my TV, and my fridge... I don't want to go back to the office AT ALL. I love most of my coworkers, like most of the ones I don't love, but I just don't want to come back to the office fulltime. I like my commute just fine, but I also like having the extra two hours a day to walk my boy to and from daycare. I'm just sort of weird right now, like, I don't know who I am or what I want. I know all this is very normal, so again, I'm trying to be easy on myself.
But I digress.
So, anyway, yeah, I don't exercise enough. I was doing my best to go for walks for recreation, and not just for dropping off the kiddo, who takes his time, rescuing earthworms (he throws them in the grass and then says in high-pitched voice, "Gracias, Matthias."), picking flowers, and jumping in puddles.
But now, Brood X is here, and I just canNOT deal with these bugs. I don't want them dive-bombing me. I don't want them sticking to my clothes. I don't want the tree sap they're eating dripping on my head. I don't dislike them--I'm actually fascinated at this miracle of nature--but I just don't want them near me.
So I'm stuck inside for now, trying to figure out how to either exercise or not feel guilty about not exercising.
My husband has mentioned a few times that the boy is going to be using a tricycle, a scooter, a Playskool truck in the not-too-distant future. He mentioned he wanted to buy a bicycle for himself, so they can use their wheels together. I said, "That sounds fun, but I can't do it. I can't do a bike."
But over the last few days, something has been coming together in my head, and today, I bit the bullet and committed to it.
I bought roller skates.
I LOVED roller skating when I was a kid. I had a pair that were way too big; I don't know why, but I just wore them as tight as I could and did the best I could, and it was fun. I imagine it will be a rude awakening to my legs, too, which they certainly need.
They'll be here in a couple weeks, and I am still not going out there to be tormented and disgusted by cicadas, but by the beginning of July, I think I'll have a plan in place to do some real exercise that I will enjoy. And I'll have wheels to keep up with the boys, too.