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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Okay, so my strategy for last week was to write about a trouble goal and man are they secretly spying on me? LOL! I have had such a hard time this past month of August. Just staying on track. I felt like my old habits are creeping up on me. I went to the mall on Sat and found myself craving all the mall food? The thought of getting a wetzel pretzel crossed my mind and I thought wait a min I can't just eat whatever I want when I want, what is wrong with me? Well here I am to write about it and get off my chest and mind.

So it turns out that I've been thinking about what my trouble goal is and it's a mind barrier. I have stopped myself from achieving the success I should have already gotten to which is reaching 50lbs lost. Somewhere in my thoughts I keep hearing this little voice say you can't lose more than 50lbs in fact you are going to give up and gain the 40+ lbs you have already lost. Where did that come from? How long have I been on SP six months at the end of September. Then why do I still hear that little voice? It's probably because I have been surpressing my self esteem to make myself think that those feelings are not there but I can no longer ignore. So I'm writing about it in hopes that I can get rid of them once and for all. All my life I have done this, I have stopped myself from doing great things. In High School I was very, very good academically, I got an 3.8 and graduated with honors with out even trying. I could have easily graduated with a 4.0. I didn't go to college, because one I was the first to graduate in my family and didn't have anyone to follow and two because I was too busy wanting to grow up. I've always had the ability to learn very quickly and I'm a hard worker. I always say, oh I would love how to do that or I would love to work in that. My husband always tells me do it take classes. But I always find an excuse. Oh I'm too busy, the kids, I don't have time, etc etc. Well now I am committed to lose this weight and then take those classes I have been putting off for all my life. It's time to get rid of these mind barriers and allow myself to be happy. Who is with me????
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  • BETTAME30
    Ok are you in my mind? lol.... All my life i always had a vision of myself doing great things but when it came time for me to actually doing it that stupid little voice will always tell me i couldn't.... and the sad thing was i ALWAYS listened to that voice ....so today after reading your blog (thanks girl !!! lol) its time to silence that voice and do the things that i always wanted to do and the 1st thing is losing the 80 pounds i have been wanting to lose for the past 10 years.... so thank you for sharing and i am with you all the way ....

    dee


    4888 days ago
  • BUTTAFLYH
    My God I feel you on this! I really don't have much to say b/c you said it for me. I am the same way and working on changing it. That whole mindset is what has held me back from weight loss among many other things.
    4888 days ago
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