Deja Vu... 240, 245, 243, 245, 242, 240
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Okay, so my strategy for last week was to write about a trouble goal and man are they secretly spying on me? LOL! I have had such a hard time this past month of August. Just staying on track. I felt like my old habits are creeping up on me. I went to the mall on Sat and found myself craving all the mall food? The thought of getting a wetzel pretzel crossed my mind and I thought wait a min I can't just eat whatever I want when I want, what is wrong with me? Well here I am to write about it and get off my chest and mind.
So it turns out that I've been thinking about what my trouble goal is and it's a mind barrier. I have stopped myself from achieving the success I should have already gotten to which is reaching 50lbs lost. Somewhere in my thoughts I keep hearing this little voice say you can't lose more than 50lbs in fact you are going to give up and gain the 40+ lbs you have already lost. Where did that come from? How long have I been on SP six months at the end of September. Then why do I still hear that little voice? It's probably because I have been surpressing my self esteem to make myself think that those feelings are not there but I can no longer ignore. So I'm writing about it in hopes that I can get rid of them once and for all. All my life I have done this, I have stopped myself from doing great things. In High School I was very, very good academically, I got an 3.8 and graduated with honors with out even trying. I could have easily graduated with a 4.0. I didn't go to college, because one I was the first to graduate in my family and didn't have anyone to follow and two because I was too busy wanting to grow up. I've always had the ability to learn very quickly and I'm a hard worker. I always say, oh I would love how to do that or I would love to work in that. My husband always tells me do it take classes. But I always find an excuse. Oh I'm too busy, the kids, I don't have time, etc etc. Well now I am committed to lose this weight and then take those classes I have been putting off for all my life. It's time to get rid of these mind barriers and allow myself to be happy. Who is with me????