A reflection on 2007

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Wow is this year already over, are we really in 2008? 2008 gosh I feel old, LOL! So I decided I wanted to write a few lines about last year so that I can focus and work on this coming year. This is the first year in my life that I can actually feel good about doing something positive for myself. It's not like any other new year where it was despressing to even look back because all I had done was work, work, work. Well obviously I've had good times, like when I met my husband, had my two kids and got married. A lot has happened since 2003 for me. Last year I felt like it was time to stop living in the "what ifs". I was going to turn 25 in July 07 and although for a lot a people that is young for me it was a turning point. I had a mini mid life crisis or should I say I'm still having one, LOL! I had many instances in 2005 where I started to really notice that I needed to do something about my weight. Once I even spent four hours looking for an outfit to go out to come back home with NOTHING! I loathed going shopping. Although I LOVE SHOPPING, LOL! I hated going into the dressing rooms and coming out with maybe one thing or nothing when I had gone in there with twenty articles of clothing. I tried to to tell myself that it was okay, that I loved myself fat. I told myself once that this was my genetics and that I couldn't do anything to help it. That was the time I got rid of all of my "skinny" clothes. So at the end of March a mircle happened, LOL! A miricle for me anyway. My husband said to me have you heard of Sparkpeople, and I said no, why would I know about this website. So he told me about it. I immediatley felt excited and the next day I came to visit and it's all history from there. It all seemed to fit together and with the help of my sitter ( I love you) she allowed me to leave my kids an extra hour with her after work so that I could work out. So I started working out and I started tracking my food about a month and a half later and little by little the weight came off. I started to lose about 10 lbs a month and feeling so much better about myself. I just kept at it and kept at it. Then in August I had lost 40 lbs with just cardio. So I decided that I needed to integrate strength training into my routine. So since August I started with a program my friends trainer started her with and I've been following it ever since. I closed 2007 with a weight loss of 70 pounds! Wow my life has changed tons! I can wear smaller clothes and cuter clothes. I even had a lady call me medium size last night when for so long I know I was looked at as big. I have had to deal with temptations and laziness. To some I succame and to some I resisted. I still struggle now. It has not been easy but my will to succeed is far more greater than my will to quit. It takes a lot to say "I'm staying in the race even if I crawl to the finish line. I want this to be my biggest triumph. I want to finally say that I set a goal and actually met it! Watch out Sparkpeople this is my year to finally do it. I can't wait to see myself in a size 12! I have gained so much from this experience. I'm greatful that I gained all of that weight because now that I have worked soooo hard to take it off, I have a greater appreciation for me and for all of those women that get up everyday to work out when they don't want to, drink a diet pepsi or water when all they really want to have is chocolate cake. If I can take only one thing out of this experience is that I will never, EVER call myself fat again. I love my body just the shape it is. I will no longer be ashamed. So to all of you out there just starting your journey or have been on it for a while, don't give in. Your day will come soon! Keep up the battle!

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    Thank you fo rthat..and congrats on everything! You rock!
    4888 days ago
  • TAMMY78
    i told you you rock im so glad you feel better and its great however and who ever tells us and anyone about sparks i love it and tell everyone you are a great friend and i looke forward to talking to you more you are my inspiration and i thank you for it and heres to you and me in 2008
    4894 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1637614
    WOW! Thats an amazing accomplishment. You pretty much started where I am at right now... and we have the same goal weight. I love the part where you say "I am staying in this race even if I have to crawl to the finish line" It gave me goosebumps!! You are an inspiration! I have been a spark member for a few months now, but am just now getting to the right frame of mind to do this and be on the right track. Here is to a great 2008!
    4896 days ago
    congrats on losing 70lbs! Never give up on the battle, anything lost is better than anything gained. Lose another 70 in 2008 and that will turn into a whopping 140lbs! He(ll) yeah! By the way love the back ground, I am now the proud owner of a pinup girl tat!
    4901 days ago
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