So this weekend pretty much defined disaster when it came to dieting. I feel so guilty. I guess it's because I am truly trying hard to change my habits, I want to be healthier. Truly, i do. I can honestly say that before this, I really could care less, I did care about what people thought my fatness, but I wasn't too concerned with it for myself. This season of Biggest Loser seems to really have hit me somewhere. There was this "hall of shame" type of thing, where the contestants stood before 3 tv screens and were shown pictures of themselves, and all their favorite food, and then it tallied, their yearly calorie consumption, daily, and then how much for certain foods, yearly total, and showed the amount of fat too. It was very bothersome, because some of them that I thought were shockingly high, didn't even compare to my daily routine. Then they went to a hospital for testing, and also to talk to a Doctor who showed them organs of a "fat" person, and that of a "healthy" person, neither were to eye pleasing mind you, but I'd prefer to be closer to that of the "healthy" organ. Other things came to mind, and I seriously I think had a "fat breakdown". I could not go on doing this anymore! NO MORE!
I knew i needed help, I could not overcome this on my own. So, I bought The Fat Smash Diet by Dr. Ian Smith, and I got a personal trainer at the gym. I thought about doing a Suzanne Sutton type of thing, having all the food delivered, but I thought that most likely for the rest of my life I am not going to order her precooked meals, i will eventually have to cook for myself, or eat out, etc. So, I thought I'd rather learn how to eat, and how to prepare meals for the whole family to enjoy and benefit from! So, I spent the money on a personal trainer.
Anyways, this weekend..not my whole life story! Sorry o get off track, had a bit of a rant I guess. So, anyways.... calorie fest in the making. Friday night it got kind of late fast, we had a lot going on and I had no food at home to prepare ( NOTHING healthy) So we went to Arby's. I had looked up nutritional information and chose the Super and potato cakes, it would be about 640 calories. By the time we got there, I had talked myself down 9 or so I thought) I decided I didn't need a "super" anything, I already had a "super" butt, and a "super gut" So I got the medium! Get home, eat it, and then come to the computer to log my cals for sparkpeople, proud that I had made the "better choice" All to my surprise.....the medium is 200 calories more, oops! How?? Oh well, the weight of the sandwich includes the lettuce and tomato and sauce on the super, and not on the medium its the roast beef weight alone! GREAT! Well...from now I on I will look at all possible options, and KNOW which is the wisest choice calorie wise. So saturday rolls around, it starts off great! I sleep til noon, so I get to "skip" breakfast. So we go out to lunch before grocery shopping to Red Robin, my FAVORITE restaurant, and before we leave I check the calories to my fav dish and its around 700 calories, so I am in! I feel good about this decision, I can handle under 700 and get through the rest of the night, or can I? We get to the grocery store, and I am thinking its going to be a nightmare, but to my surprise he didn't load up with junk! Normally, he must have one of everything "bad", and the temptation is horrible! I get all my "good" food and we exit safely! I "snack" through the evening for dinner, yogurt, apple, 100 calorie ice cream, sugar free popsicle and that's all. So not too bad....then Sunday happens...3am wake up get a glass of chocolate milk, and 3 famous amos cookies (small ones) yea....not so good. 347 Calories WASTED OH NO!!!!Ok, So I will go back to bed sleep til noon, avoid breakfast and call that breakfast, and breakfast but all in all. I hated claiming those points, I wanted to deny them. They make me so mad! They'll hurt me so bad! I cheated myself. OF course we go to Cracker Barrel for dinner, and I get a salad. Good choice right!? Unfortunately I couldn't find nutrition info on the web for cracker barrel, so I blindly guessed at which salad would be best. I chose the Oven Roasted Turkey Breast Salad. It had colby cheese! Did you know colby has the highest cal and fat?? Well, I didn't! So that was an additional 700+ calories (whole salad incl. dressing) and I still have hours to go ( this was at 4) this is not good. I am promising myself an apple at 7:30 and that's it. I don't eat after 7:30 anymore anyways.
On a brighter note, I did burn5367 calories this week (Sunday-Saturday) and consumer 7760. I burned 69 % of my consumer calories! It feels like an accomplishment, I wonder if it is!? I am going to try for 80% next week!