Good and Bad
Friday, January 25, 2008
I took the day off work today, figuring that I had the two doc appointments and could use the rest of the day to de-stress. Wow was that only a dream!!
One of the hotel casinos on the strip caught on fire and the entire day was just a crazy mess!! The fire made traffic a bear and one of my appointments was across town and my cell was dead all day and I had trouble finding the buildings and I thought I would do some shopping at Old Navy for some cheap work clothes (which is extremely stressful and never turns out well for me - I didn't buy anything BTW). About the only calm, nice thing that I experienced today was when I popped by my mom's for a few hours to visit my niece.
This started when first thing this morning. My car was blocked in the garage when I tried to leave this morning because two of my husband's friends crashed here last night! And when I got home from Old Navy they were still here (both cars still in the driveway - this time blocking my way IN!!) and they had left the garage door wide open for who knows how long!
Anyway, the point being, today should have been a day for me to completely lose it. But anytime I felt frazzled or panicky I just pushed on through. It's strange that, despite two doctor's appointments and an entirely chaotic day, I managed to keep in a good mood. I just plain refused to let the day's events drag me down..... and believe me it was a STRUGGLE!! But an important lesson learned from this...... I do have the power to control my own emotions. (Or at least keep them from being destructive.) This day could have been sooooo much worse had I let my emotions get the best of me. I drove in traffic, I waited in doctor's waiting rooms, I dealt with overnight company (who - in their defense - are usually extremely considerate), and all without the comfort of my cell phone! I didn't yell, I didn't curse, I didn't rant (although that may have been due to having no one to rant to because of the cell issue), and I survived.
And, really, what's the point of getting all worked up? It won't change anything. And it usually makes you feel worse because you are focusing on the negative. I just turned up the radio in my car, I was prepared with a good novel at the doc's office, and I smiled and listened when my company told me a story about how he won $400 dollars at a casino this morning. After I finally got my cell charged, I talked to my sister for about 20 minutes (mostly laughing at my catastrophe of a day) and took a nice hot shower.
It was a struggle not to let today's events get to me, and I feel even better because of my ability to stay positive. If I could do this today, I could do it everyday, and a positive attitude has been what I have been missing these last few weeks in trying to lose weight. I'm not saying I won't have bad days.... it's just nice to know that, when they come, I don't have to give in to them!!