Part 10: Baby you can drive my car
Sunday, March 01, 2009      1 comments

I started this journey looking back – as far back as I could. I really wanted to be as honest as I could with myself about who I have been, who I was, and who I am. Food and fat have always been a part of my journey, like it or not. While my las... Read more
Part 9: Haven't got time for the Pain
Friday, February 27, 2009      1 comments

(Before I move on...I'm working backwards trying to work out some of my long term issues with food. This is part 8 of the series and we're in 1989) I think to understand how 1989 was so painful for me, you’d have to understand who I thought... Read more
Part 8: Lyin' Eyes
Monday, February 23, 2009      2 comments

(Before I move on...I'm working backwards trying to work out some of my long term issues with food. This is part 8 of the series and we're in 1983.) I can honestly say that my early married life was not consumed by food. I rarely thought ab... Read more
Part 7: Goin' to the Chapel
Sunday, February 08, 2009      0 comments

(This is an ongoing journal of my lifelong relationship with food. We're in 1982) The college years are a bit of a blur. No reason to go into details. At the end of college an old friend of mine from Seattle showed up on my doorstep on... Read more
Part 6: Becoming Friends with the White Rabbit
Friday, February 06, 2009      0 comments

"One pill makes you larger, and one pill makes you small..." (Jefferson Airplane-White Rabbit "Go Ask Alice") College was a rude awakening. I expected there to be a different set of social standards there, but found it to be an extension of... Read more
Part 5: Once more, with feeling
Friday, January 23, 2009      0 comments

My parents moved away at the beginning of my senior year in High School. Having some understanding of how difficult this would be for me, they agreed to let me remain in our hometown and live with a young married couple on our block. As they dr... Read more
Part 4: Seasons in the Sun
Thursday, January 22, 2009      2 comments

(This is an ongoing journal of my life with food...starting with my earliest memories until now) High School is a tricky maze to navigate for most teens. Upon arriving home from my summer in Seattle I found my group of popular friends to be... Read more
Part 3: You'd be pretty if only...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009      0 comments

My best friend Pam was beautiful and thin. My best friends throughout my life have always beautiful and thin. I somehow became relegated to being the ‘fat friend’ that the boys would try not to get stuck with at the end of the night. The ‘you’d ... Read more
Part 2: Twiggy Doesn't Live Here Any More
Sunday, January 18, 2009      0 comments

The transition from childhood to adolescence isn’t easy for anyone. I think it’s particularly difficult for fat children. At the time when girls are noticing boys and boys are noticing back, we are left on the sidelines of life. I began my journ... Read more
Part 1: Hey, Hey, Hey
Friday, January 16, 2009      1 comments

I was a fat little girl. Chubby, they used to say. I even recall that my mother had to buy my clothes at a section of the Lane Bryant store they called The Chubby Shop. It’s a wonder a 9 year old girl would be mortified to shop there! I don’t ... Read more
Intro: The Elephant in the Room
Thursday, January 15, 2009      0 comments

When I was married in 1982 I weighed 275 pounds. I considered myself a fairly ‘healthy’ fat woman. I wasn’t suffering any health issues. I worked, played, had sex and enjoyed life with little or no thoughts about how my weight was impacting ever... Read more
From Diets to Donuts
Thursday, January 15, 2009      2 comments

I have decided as part of my journey this time around, I am going to be more honest with myself about who I am and where I've been. I think the old adage about those who do not understand history being doomed to repeat it is a good one to follow... Read more

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