Don't EVER Give Up on Yourself
Saturday, April 22, 2017      4 comments

Here I am again... Hit rock bottom, crawled back up, tried to redeem my character and myself as much as I could, and in the process, gained pretty much all the weight back and then a little extra to reach my all-time high of non-pregnancy weight... Read more
Potato Chip Therapy
Monday, July 25, 2011      6 comments

My goal for the summer was not about weight loss, even though I am back to my starting weight after my first child was born. As you may know, I have been battling depression, worthlessness, bottom of the gutter self-esteem issues for the past ... Read more
Consignment Store Skirt
Sunday, May 29, 2011      9 comments

So because I am too fat for any of my dressy clothes, I found myself at the consignment store (2nd hand store) for some new "bottoms" that would be appropriate for my volunteer work that I do on Tuesdays. It is an office setting, so I feel obli... Read more
That Felt Better, Thank You
Thursday, May 26, 2011      5 comments

Thank you all for your responses and support. Can't find more support ANYWHERE than Spark, that's for sure ... Read more
Where Have I Been?
Sunday, May 22, 2011      16 comments

Stuck. Sad. Fat. (not that this matters, although it is a little bit uncomfortable) That's pretty much where I've been. Thank you to the few SP friends who have inquired. I do feel that Spark is the one place where I can be com... Read more
Still Not So Good
Saturday, March 26, 2011      8 comments

Despite insight and introspection, I still struggle at a weight that is too high for me. I am very close to 160lbs and am at the point where the weight is physically uncomfortable. And in spite of the discomfort, I feel little to no motivation... Read more
I Get It Now
Tuesday, January 04, 2011      6 comments

I took a sneak peek at the scale this morning, and I can see that the holiday bloat (water weight) is gone. Now it's time to buckle down and get the actual WEIGHT off (again). (People magazine online) has an interview with Drew ... Read more
Maybe It's Not Me...
Monday, January 03, 2011      3 comments

For the past few years, I've been struggling with despair. I can't even call it depression, because I have struggled with depression since I was 9 years old. What I have been dealing with now is almost rock-bottom depression, I guess. For... Read more
Saturday, January 01, 2011      8 comments

I feel like I've been gone so long that I've lost my way back on track. Still battling feelings of despair and worthlessness. Trying to do better this year.... Read more
Thanks for the Roughness
Thursday, November 25, 2010      5 comments

These past 2-3 years have been really rough, but it could have been much worse. I'm so thankful for the following: To live in a nation of opportunity To have a husband who supports me To have healthy children who can go to school To hav... Read more
I Can Tell You
Wednesday, November 24, 2010      4 comments

Lately, I have been so down. Just lacking all motivation. Things have been getting better, so why don't I feel better? I feel like I've been walking around in a haze. I'm sure the weather doesn't help anything at all.... Read more
Same Time, Last Year, Same Thing, This Year
Sunday, November 21, 2010      6 comments

I've been absent from Spark and from this blog. I noticed a couple of weeks ago that I started staying up too late. So tired in the morning. Retreating away in my room or on my computer (but not here). Not posting on my blogs. Not weigh... Read more
Postman Always Rings Twice
Wednesday, October 27, 2010      6 comments

I have not been doing well at all, and I've been lying to myself, thinking I'm doing better than I really am. I feel like I'm not even trying, and I feel the need to apologize to myself for that :-( I made the stupid mistake of opening up ... Read more
Just Have To Get Through This Week
Saturday, October 16, 2010      5 comments

This one's a doozy and it hasn't even started yet. ... Read more
What Can I Say?
Wednesday, October 13, 2010      6 comments

So it's been a really hard week. House stuff. Court stuff. Depression stuff. Hormonal stuff. School stuff. I look back now and think that it's a near donkey miracle (not just a miracle but a "donkey miracle") that I gained ONLY 2lb las... Read more

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 Last Page »