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Yay for wipers that work!
Thursday, May 02, 2019      1 comments

When Hubs was home, he "fixed" the passenger wiper on the little car. It totally stopped working in the thunderstorm the other day. Sigh. Scheduled it in the shop today, expecting it to be stripped and need a new motor (after all, when I sugges... Read more
Rough day
Monday, April 29, 2019      1 comments

Most of my days since the attack have been rough, but today really kicked my butt. Had another follow up with my PCP for the ptsd. She's trying to find a way to get me into therapy sooner. She also got the counselor's advice for the nightma... Read more
On the bright side...
Sunday, April 28, 2019      4 comments

Even though I've been MIA on spark again, I'm at the lowest weight I've been in about 7 years. This morning scale read 311.8 and I wish I was happier about it. I just loathe that my loss is due to the recent incident and resulting PTSD. Si... Read more
Thursday, April 18, 2019      6 comments

So, by now we all know that I was attacked in my car, physically assaulted, and am now dealing with post traumatic stress. I've been referred for counseling, they called yesterday while I was out. I called back first thing this morning. Fi... Read more
Dealing as best I can
Wednesday, April 17, 2019      4 comments

I took the broken keychain with my blood on it from the attack over to the sherriff's office for evidence this morning. Was stressed when I got home, didn't check my answering machine til later tonight. The counselor's office I was referred... Read more
I want my life back
Tuesday, April 16, 2019      6 comments

I've been AWOL a few days again. I'm still not sleeping well and I am approaching total exhaustion. I've already had 2 adjustments to the ptsd meds. I'm able to mostly function, but I need sleep. A friend has been coming and helping tear t... Read more
Day 3 back...
Friday, April 12, 2019      3 comments

So, the day was rough. Still not sleeping, so dr. ordered another med for nighttime. Had to look in side door pocket of van for little ice scraper this morning for the mirror. Found the keychain that was broken saturday night. It still has... Read more
Day 2 back...
Thursday, April 11, 2019      2 comments

So, if you read my AWOL blog, you know what's been going on. Today, my shop neighbor in the mall texted me to let me know it was going to be very loud most of the day. A pipe broke in the basement of the mall building and the plumbers were ... Read more
Wednesday, April 10, 2019      6 comments

I haven't blogged for a few days because I have tried to not only blog about bad days and frustration and was really trying to be more positive about things. Then things went to he## in a hurry. Thursday, Hubs' rig got hit in a parking lot.... Read more
Progress and retail therapy
Wednesday, April 03, 2019      2 comments

I intended to post this blog yesterday, then it ended up being one of "those" days where it was all I could do to just remember to breathe. Anxiety sucks. Anyway... I went shopping the day before yesterday. I needed (sorry about tmi) new un... Read more
Shrinking spares
Monday, April 01, 2019      4 comments

I discovered this morning that where I USED to have 2 rather large (Ok, big enough for Hubs' RIG) spare tires around my middle. I now have 1 car tire and 1 bicycle tire! I still have a LONG way to go, but you know what? This was still an AM... Read more
Baby steps-
Friday, March 29, 2019      2 comments

I was having one of "those" days at work today. Since I'm the owner, I decided it was more important to take care of me today than sit and wait for customers that weren't coming in. I came home and did some cleaning in the house, I had let ... Read more
And yet another "new beginning"
Thursday, March 28, 2019      2 comments

I haven't really been off the rails, my weight is still below 320, but I've been away from spark for too long again. I've been struggling with the anxiety disorder and losing more battles than I've won with it, but the war is not over. I ha... Read more
Injuries s*ck.
Monday, March 04, 2019      3 comments

My leg is finally starting to feel better, not a lot, but some. So I got on the scale this morning. It says I've gained 14lbs in less than 2 weeks?! I haven't been as mindful of my choices as I could have been, but I haven't been off the r... Read more
Friday, March 01, 2019      5 comments

I'm frustrated and really trying hard to not have a massive food binge and crying session. Things have been worse, I'm just exhausted from pain, stress, cold, frustration, and people letting me down. Thank God Hubs is at least behaving hims... Read more

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