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Sunday, March 06, 2011      14 comments

Yesterdays drama has spilled over into today. Part of me accepts my body. Another part despises it. It is a constant battle of acceptance and harrassment. I was watching Burlesque last night and I would love to be as tiny as Christina Agul... Read more
Saturday, March 05, 2011      19 comments

I have not even been home for 24 hours and already my mom and sister ganged up on me. Its pathetic how they make me feel. Its annoying how quickly I remember how much theyve hurt me. Its painful to sit here and just endure it. It sucks... Read more
get comfortable being uncomfortable
Thursday, March 03, 2011      10 comments

This concept is not something I am good with. You are uncomfortable for a reason, so how can you be comfortable with it? Well, in my school we are being taught how. Its interesting but I must admit, its scary. I am not good with chang... Read more
dont ever let them say you aint beautiful
Wednesday, March 02, 2011      10 comments

Another day of feeling happy. This is my longest streak yet! && it feels soooo good! I have been feeling pretty lonely lately and then BAM today is the day of boys. One poked me on facebook, one wants to go on a double date, one is coming t... Read more
that black cloud
Tuesday, March 01, 2011      14 comments

that black cloud that caused the rain, left a rainbow This morning I woke up and my whole body hurt. Not the stiff kind like you slept hard but the kind when you feel like you had cement poured over you and you dried over night. I couldnt m... Read more
wow, march snuck up on me!
Monday, February 28, 2011      11 comments

I cant believe it is March tomorrow. My only goal for march is to stay happy. Simple enough. No more forcing to eat in a calorie range and drive myself nuts over it. No more obsessing over a goal that makes me miserable is unachieved and o... Read more
happy girl in a beautiful world
Sunday, February 27, 2011      19 comments

let me tell you about this girl. She got teased. Made fun of. Had her feelings hurt. She allowed the rude remarks of people rule her own feelings about herself. She was miserable. She was unhappy with her body. She allowed being overweight ... Read more
a day in the life of me
Thursday, February 24, 2011      18 comments

A high pitched noise awakes me from my slumber. Its 7:30 in the morning. Crap. Time to get up for school. Run to the bathroom and look in the mirror on the way out. Well, hey your teeth look super white! Smile. Hmmmm Jess, you should probab... Read more
oh hey, nice to see you again.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011      14 comments

Today I am happy. Simply, happy. Today I am 'ME'.I looked in the mirror and there 'I' was. Not the girl that inhabits my body as of late. I am not the girl who is sad about everything. I am not angry with myself. Sure, I am annoyed th... Read more
Monday, February 21, 2011      14 comments

emoticon How to you get yourself to stop. ... Read more
Monday, February 21, 2011      17 comments

There are a lot of things in my little brain and it is starting to short circuit. * I want to think I am pretty and have the confidence in myself but I also do not want to be one of those girls that people go, why does she think that of her... Read more
I need to seduce Lady Luck...
Sunday, February 20, 2011      12 comments

I had the worst weekend. I went to the mountains with my friend, we will call her K. Her sisters J1(35 years old) & J2 (28 years old) and her mom were there too to celebrate K's 21st birthday. They fought all weekend and were constantly bit... Read more
rule #3; never. Never. NEVER give up!
Thursday, February 17, 2011      10 comments

My haircut today was perfectly symmetrical. My teacher was happy & I was extremely happy! Wednesday I was ready to just give up on school. But I have learned the best things come from perserverance. I want to be an amazing hairstylist. I ca... Read more
rule #2; communicate.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011      20 comments

My mannequin was not cooperating with me today. I was having so many issues and at lunch I was ready to throw in the hairdryer and head on a new career path. I decided to first talk to my teacher and she was able to help me. I was not doing... Read more
rule #1: dont hit your mannequin with a comb
Tuesday, February 15, 2011      19 comments

So day 2 of cosmetology school....... Yeah. About that.... I shouldnt say I dont like it. I am just very overwhelmed. Plus today was that day where if everything could go wrong, it did. So maybe I am a little biased. If I go into ... Read more

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