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this isn’t me
Monday, August 27, 2018      8 comments

I do not like this version of me. I’m exhausted. I’m crying. I’m stressed and anxious. I’m feeling low energy. I’m struggling to wake without coffee. Even with coffee I do not feel alert. My clothes are tight. My back constantly hurts again. My ... Read more
exhaustion
Sunday, August 26, 2018      6 comments

I’ve cried three times this past week. Why? Because I’m just purely exhausted. I think it’s true, that I’ve been struggling with stress without even fully realizing it. But today, as I pour these words out into paper, tears well in my eyes. ... Read more
well those jeans do not look good...
Thursday, August 23, 2018      4 comments

I bought jeans a size don from what I wear. Oh what a painful wake up call. What a disappointing feeling to not fit. But it’s lit a huge fire in me to continue to push myself. I can do this. I will do this.... Read more
everything happens for a reason
Wednesday, August 22, 2018      9 comments

Remember how disappointed I was when I didn’t get the team lead/assisted management position at my cubicle job? I bawled my eyes out feeling like I was not good enough. Everything happens for a reason right? The woman who accepted the positi... Read more
losing weight is hard
Sunday, August 19, 2018      3 comments

Losing weight is hard. Struggling to see the scale move down is hard. Hitting 15k steps a day is hard. Exercise is hard. Staying on track is hard. Having to always measure, count and track my meals is hard. When I stay to my macros and stick to ... Read more
I’m tired of sabotaging myself
Friday, August 17, 2018      5 comments

I am so tired of sabotaging myself. I’ve decided that I must stop binging, making bad food choices and getting upset with myself over it. After all, losing weight is about consistent healthy habits. And the key to making those habits successfu... Read more
“but junk food tastes so good”
Thursday, August 16, 2018      5 comments

I was talking with a friend yesterday about how I’ve been indulging more than I should. And I said “but junk food tastes so good”. This morning on my walk I was thinking about healthy food vs junk food and how one just tastes so much better. ... Read more
I need to vent
Wednesday, August 15, 2018      3 comments

With all the stomach problems I’ve been having, I’m constantly asked if I am pregnant. As someone with health issues and wants a baby I AM JUST SO TIRED OF PEOPLE ASKING. NOPE NOT PREGNANT YET STOP REMINDING ME. It amazes me how many people f... Read more
what does stress feel like?
Wednesday, August 15, 2018      5 comments

I was told that the #1 cause of bathroom issues is stress related. In my head, I always associated feeling stressed with anxiety. But, a conversation with a friend made me realize that being stressed doesn’t mean being on the verge of an anxie... Read more
Voted Popular Blog Post: View All Popular Posts how to measure success
Sunday, August 12, 2018      11 comments

Is the number on the scale the only thing that matters? What about: Better sleep Waking refreshed Less body pain More energy No headaches Walking with less pain Exercising with less pain Crushing your mile time Not lethargic or sluggish Les... Read more
the more I think about it...
Friday, August 10, 2018      5 comments

The more I think about it, the more I realize how silly I was thinking about how many lbs I have been wanting to lose each month. That kinda goal doesn’t and won’t ever work for me. I need to keep doing what makes me feel my best. Because the... Read more
a change in mindset
Thursday, August 09, 2018      4 comments

Struggling with tummy issues this week has not been fun, or easy. I’ve found myself wanting to feel better. I want to eat better because it makes me feel better. That’s all this is about. I want to feel better. I want to sleep well, have energ... Read more
giving myself some grace
Wednesday, August 08, 2018      3 comments

I felt so sick yesterday I had to rush home from work for pepto and to pickup ginger ale. I ate only toast for dinner. I slept like a rock and had weird dreams. I am trying so hard to get on track because I have this desperate desire to be sup... Read more
celebrate all the little victories
Tuesday, August 07, 2018      5 comments

It is so easy to focus on the bad. Like how I’m not hitting my steps, not going to yoga, and been doing a little binge-eating. But instead of beating myself up I am going to change my mindset and focus on what I’m doing right! I have been glu... Read more
not my smartest move...maybe?
Monday, August 06, 2018      6 comments

I bought jeans that are a full size below me. Plus, they aren’t “jeggings” so they aren’t super stretchy. Here’s to hoping they will eventually fit! I need a constant push to keep me going because lately, I’ve given up. I started in January wi... Read more

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